Hi Mum, I’m getting my Covid vaccine today just after 3pm. I have felt a strong need to write a letter and I can only pray that this is nothing but a silly letter.
The reason I feel compelled to write this is because I don’t feel safe at all getting the vaccine. The only reason I am getting it is because I am struggling to live with the discrimination, ostracizing and bullying I have seen and received by not getting one. Even family saying they won’t see me because I’m not vaccinated, it almost feels like blackmail.
I’ve done my research into this, and I don’t just mean looking at the Covid website, I mean I have looked into both sides as I think it’s naïve not to. You know I’m pro-vaccination and my son is currently fully vaccinated and so as soon as I heard there was a vaccine for Covid I knew I was going to get one. I started hearing murmurs of deaths and how some people felt this was rushed, which is why I decided to look into the vaccine. Today’s appointment will actually be the 6th time I’ve booked for my 1st vaccine. That’s because I will find data on the vaccine that makes me feel comfortable, so I book it. Then later I will find data against the vaccine that doesn’t, so I cancel it. I have gone back and forth in my research until I finally concluded that this vaccine has many faults, and I would rather face my chances with Covid. Clear evidence of a natural supplement been proven effective against Covid has been made illegal in NZ but allowed in other countries. Reminds me of Dallas Buyers Club. Misguiding on Covid’s own website saying you’re less likely to contract and transmit Covid, but also then saying that’s based only on their beliefs as they don’t actually have data to prove this claim. Overseas reports and data now showing that infection rates are higher among fully vaccinated than those not, and we seem to follow in trends after them. Drugs normally given a warning after 5 deaths and removed with 50 deaths from the market completely, yet this vaccine has reached tens of thousands of deaths. Are those statistics even the true number? Not with many adverse reactions not being reported and not considering they keep using the excuse of death due to underlying health conditions consistently being used. The end story for me is these “underlying conditions” would not have killed them if they didn’t get the vaccine.
I’ve definitely seen an “us Vs them” happening. Like I said I’ve seen bullying and discrimination vastly towards unvaccinated, but what I have found out that most of the people doing this haven’t taken a moment to look into it, and further most who have done so have only looked into one side which will only give you one side of the data. I’ve seen posts discriminating people saying my body, my choice. These posts referencing and comparing to the choices and consequences received if you drink drive, speed, rob a bank etc. Those things are illegal, and they are dangerous. They compare to say the consequence of not being vaccinated is that you will lose your job and that is your own choice as “no-one is forcing you to get the vaccine”. Well firstly the consequence of not getting the vaccine is potentially contracting Covid and not being able to go to concerts, restaurants, and stores. And you know what, based on what I know I was ok with that if it meant I didn’t get the vaccine. And secondly between getting the vaccine or losing my job is not REALLY a choice! I have my son to provide for.
A lot of people say they’re getting the vaccine because they’re rallying for their country and because the government told them to, and I want to ask them if they’ve always done what the government asked, because I’ve actually noticed this not to be true. You know I love Aunty Cindy and I believe that she tries her best to do what’s good for us, but I think she’s dropped the ball on this one. I think she’s rallied and followed the rest of the world without looking into it herself. If we’re being pushed towards getting the vaccine, and they acknowledge the vaccine is killing people with “underlying conditions”, then why are we all not being tested for these before getting the vaccine? Why am I being preached to about my “due diligence” to get the vaccine when you’re not doing your own “due diligence” to ensure I’m safe? I’ve had people say to me it’s the risk you take to not get Covid. No, it’s the definite you take for the risk of not getting Covid.
The government advised if 90% are fully immunized then this will give us a good level of safety. They are almost at this number and will get there once the 1st vaccine dosers have their 2nd. So why is there bullying towards those of us that are left? I understand there are people who can’t get it, but if we’re reaching the target then surely those of us that are here unvaccinated by choice can be left alone now?
As you know well Mum, I suffered seizures during the times of my life I was being vaccinated. The doctors didn’t know what caused them, but sure enough they stopped once I no longer needed vaccinations. Despite this I believe in vaccinations and despite that I’m afraid of this one. I’m writing this potentially “silly” letter because I’m afraid this vaccine is going to kill me or give me a complicated side effect, even if it’s one of the smaller ones like becoming infertile because I really want another child. I’m writing this potentially “silly” letter because I’m afraid that if any of this happens, my death would be in vain. I’m afraid that if I die or have other complications and it will instead be cited as due to other reasons. I’m writing this “silly” letter because if something happens to me today or within the months following my vaccine, it is 100% the vaccine’s fault.
I love you Mum
xx Charlie xx